setbacks.

had setbacks today with dad. more swelling of the brain, which is bad. in fact, his brain is worse than when he first came into er. back to a 50-50 chance of survival. anyway, they are giving him medication to get more blood to the brain to help. will have another catscan tomorrow morning so we should know more then.

i am hanging in there pretty well. i can still see the light and am trying to be positive. i am reflecting on how little i knew about dad's circle of friends as i receive a flood of emails from old friends and co-workers. i am looking at him with new eyes after all these years. he talked about us to people. he is proud of us. he changed people's lives. he gave direction. he provided guidance. he is perceived as strong, tough, determined. i've received emails from my friends and family that have brought tears to my eyes because of their eloquence. they have made me feel cared for and loved.

will write more soon.